I need to blog this morning before my work day begins. Amazing, once again, that one day is good and the next is a train wreck. I don't know if it was the incredible winds and rain or just being unsettled in general, but I found it hard to sleep through the night and of course the angry feeling has been grinding inside all morning. I know I don't want to smoke, but I guess I forgot to tell my brain. I drove to work with the windows open. I can't believe it and I know there were people thinking I was bonafide nuts. But I really wanted to have cold fresh air in my lungs and on my face. It helped somewhat, but I think I'm in a scary place in NML. I keep reading about it hoping to gain even more understanding of this place and I am sure I have, but I'm struggling a little today. I really do appreciate everyone listening to my see saw days. It does help. Know that for me N.O.P.E. is ingrained in my head. If I was someone who had the nerve to get a tattoo I would put that on my arm. I am keeping the faith and believing all those who have made it out of NML that I can do this.
Love to all,