Happy Friday

[MichelleDiane]

Hello fellow eX's.  I wanted to get on here and blog just...well because I feel like it.  I am on my 40th DOF.  It has been a challenge, but I am moving forward.  Mornings are still hard for me and I find it is the most difficult time of the day.  I have changed up my routine, but still feel anxious when I start my day.  Sometime around 9 or 9:30 I feel a little better and feel more settled.  At that point my mind is not thinking about cigarettes.  Funny...I was driving this morning and saw a man on his front steps about the put a cigarette to his mouth (of course there was a stop sign and this is why I saw it).  I pictured myself taking in the first drag and I really started to cough...not in my thought, but out loud.  I played the whole scenario.  I would feel dizzy, nauseas, and every other kind of physical yuck.  Also, the thought of going back to the first day shook me out of it.  Well, it's off to work where I know I am most happy because I do not think about smoking at all.  Happy Friday!

-Michelle