After I dropped my daughter off at work I decided to go to a store in the mall. As I was walking to the store I started thinking about how cool the air was and how I was purposefully going somewhere. I am a crafter and am looking to organize my craft station, so I wanted to browse through The Container Store. At first I wasn't sure what the feeling was, but I know I was noticing all of the people coming and going. I was also aware that no one was smoking. Earlier I had gone grocery shopping and a man was standing in the parking lot with a full cigarette in his hand. The smoke curled up in the air and I wanted to be as far away from him as possible. But not at the mall. I found myself alive with the other patrons. My thoughts did not go towards cigarettes. Rather, I was wondering what these people did instead of smoking. Now I know that there may have been some people in the crowd that did smoke, but not in sight to where I was. I started to wonder about the times in my life when I wasn't smoking. Although it has been some time (over 30 years), I do recall times when I was happy running around in barefoot outside during the summer, watching movies with my friends (Rocky was the best), going on trips with my parents, and some more. I didn't smoke then. I hope that the day comes when I, too, just go about my day without the thought of a cigarette on my mind. I want to stay being a non-smoker.
-Michelle
It's going to take awhile but with time under your belt you'll begin to realize just how much better life is without the crutch of cigarettes and that being able to go anywhere, anytime, whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a cancer stick is totally awesome and that life as an Ex Smoker is fantastic, please read Dale's page concerning the first 4 months of quitting smoking if you haven't already, his page really helped me through the rough patches every time I struggled I'd read his page and come on line to blog and comment, you are doing great Michelle .