Thank you everyone for all the support. I am so thankful and grateful for all of you. You guys give me hope. If I could figure out how to put a picture up from my phone I would. I’m 45 with 2 beautiful adult daughters. I’m currently separated from my spouse of 8 years. I plan to divorce him as soon as I legally can. This is another huge stress for me along with the 5th knee surgery. As I mentioned I am 8 years 8 months free from drugs/alcohol. I am a recovering addict in a 12 step program with a sponsor. I also sponsor women as well. My spouse relapsed on a regular basis and I could not do it anymore. I look forward to a healthy life Nicotine/smoke free and CLEAN . Much love to all of you!! You have helped so much!!! So glad I found you guys!!