Depression is certainly a battle! I try my hardest not to stay curled up on the sofa all day but my body get so drained when I move around. Smoking never helped me (I was convinced it did) but my education on addiction now know that it didn't. Since I quit, I find myself fighting harder just to move! I convinced myself smoking helped now I have to convince myself it doesn't. The medicine I'm on is half of 5mg of abilify I'm thinking that's a joke! I've been on it for about 5 months or more now and have seen no results at all I'm also on a small dosage of lexapro neither of them are helping and the Dr is always booked for months! It makes me want to give up on the meds and fight it on my own. Now when I'm around my family im easily frustrated and just really want to be alone. I went grocery shopping with my mom today and almost lost my mind because our bags were put in the buggy together and they got mixed up. Something as simple as that! Now I'm to the point I just want to blog in silence but my family keep talking to me. I know that sound pretty selfish but right now that's how I'm feeling. Well at least I'm not smoking and not even thinking about it!