Ouch!!!  Starting Over AGAIN

Blog Post created by Mavihoja on Jun 23, 2019

Well, well, well.  I've been trying to decide what I wanted to say to my friends here, but the only thing I can come up with is the truth.  I fell.  I let my own head steer me in a wrong direction.  I bought a pack of American Spirit Light Organics, and proceeded to our popular sports bar here in Fountain Hills, had a few drinks, smoked the first cig on the way to the bar.  So, thinks didn't get too far crazy, and I woke up the next morning feeling horrible.  Not just physically, but emotionally to the max.  Bottom line here is that I got back up on the horse and now am in my 3rd day clean again.  I still feel quite wounded, but maybe I just needed that last slap in the face to remind me how interwoven alcohol and cigarettes really are.  They both are quite contrary to good health, and one seems to lead to the other, if one has that habit pattern deeply ingrained into their psyche.  I normally don't drink alcohol at all...that's just the way I like to be.  I usually like to be healthy, clean and sober.  So, I am praying a lot, turning this whole thing back over to God, as I understand him.  Today is day 3, and I feel quite strong about that.

So, I felt it the most honest thing to do is come clean with you good folks.  Any help, or input would be appreciated ...I obviously missed something cucial.  Mainly, the one about "NO MATTEWR WHAT".