I'm very fortunate to still have my Dad in my life I'll get my brother tomorrow after church and Dad will get my younger sister because they both live close together a half hour from me and we'll hook up at the grave site and put new flowers on Mom's headstone it's hard to believe it's been seven years since she passed then there's other times it seems like yesterday BUT thankfully smoking isn't even a blimp on my Radar because I don't do that anymore and I know Mom would be so proud of me for quitting she was on oxygen 7/24 for over a year before she died on January 26th 2012 she just turned 72 on the 23rd of January and her funeral was on my Mother in law's birthday and one of my great neices on the 28th I'm really glad that I finally wised up and quit smoking because I plan on being around to enjoy the little things in life that's actually the the big things in life and I want the best quality of life that I can possibly have, heres a picture of my Mom back in June of 1983 that's my son Alfred when he was 3 months old when I flew back from Edmonton Alberta for a vacation and the other pic is Mason when he was 3 years old, he's pretty played out from running up and down the halls of the nursing home whew so was I from chasing him 
my daughter Mandy took this pic which is the last picture I ever got because Mom passed 22 days later so this picture is priceless to me I loved the expression on her face when I finally got Mason settled on lap watching T.V. she's like whew ........ smoking doesn't need to be part of our lives period because we really can live life on life's terms if we stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance there's absolutely no way we can FAIL we must choose to stick with our quits N.M.W...... I know EXactly how horrendous it can be in those early weeks BUT I also know that it's very Doable with willingness determination commitment and perseverance and I didn't tear my hair out or rip anyone's face off even though I felt like it at times BUT thankfully I had this community to come to vent and there was always someone here to help me through and there's always someone here to help you too .......
