My Quit Journey: Day two

Blog Post created by Marigene6266 on Aug 11, 2020

Wow, It's amazing how much different I feel after just one day. I still feel anxious, nervous and having those cravings but my mindset today is almost totally the opposite of yesterday. Yesterday I was feeling defeated and pushed into a corner. I felt like nothing was going right. Today I was able to just relax and enjoy the day. The cravings are less stronger but I did not feel like I was going to fall into a million pieces without the nicotine. I'm feeling stronger and more in control than yesterday, although I have to say that is the emotional feeling, physically i'm still very much a mess. Yesterday, I could not stay still , had to constantly keep moving. Sleep last night was almost impossible for several hours. Everytime I tried to lay down, I felt like my skin was crawling and I wanted to jump right outta my skin.I went out on the porch a few times, listen to the night sounds that included crickets and various other insects, a jet flying over, cows in the neighbors field. Listened to nature and enjoyed the night sounds. Being a country girl makes that kind of thing relaxing and I really needed it. I don't go out much after dark due to having  coyotes in our area and a skunk living in the area too. He walks through the yard makes his presence know at least once a week.  I'm glad I could safely go outside last night. I finally  googled what I was feeling at about 2:30 am and discovered it was likely a side effect of the patch. I knew I would be putting on a new one as soon as I woke up so I took it off and was asleep before 3. Am hoping I do not have the same problem tonight as I am really tired. I kept myself busy today by working on my genealogy research. I have been doing this for over 30 years and it brings me a great deal of joy and satisfaction. I love working out genealogical puzzles and enjoy the shock the results sometimes bring.  Feeling Strong and Confident Today!