Although I failed my first quit date, I did not leave. I just stepped away from the quit for a minute with intent to come back to it again. I may have failed once but I will not fail forever.
I did better the second time and got further than 24 hours. Buuuttt then I smoked almost an entire pack of cigarettes in one evening after work that evening. I have never smoked that much all at once in my life! I think I was feeling deprived of something. This quit wasn't entirely my idea--it is being forced by my employer. I agree that it is a good thing though and I like my job, so I will not poison other people with some lingering fear and feelings of being treated unfairly over quitting. Those are not positive things to focus on, though I DISTINCTIVELY felt feelings of being deprived and then gluttony when I chain smoked.
I can do this. I can win. I will get there.
