When I think back to my smoking days , it's really what I was saying . Cigarettes , I love you more .
My kids hated my smoking and I truly loved my kids more , but did my smoking reflect that love . Hugs do , spending time with them does , but smoking does not .
In reality I didn't love smoking at all , I was addicted and used it to cope , to validate myself , to boost an image I thought I lacked or wanted to be , or used to nurture myself , but the message to my kids was more than likely this ...
Mom loves her cigarettes more than anything .
When I sat in the garage protecting my kids from smoking , it was routine to them for me not to be around during that time , to them likely the message they thought was she's addicted and she won't quit . She loves cigarettes more than me .
Smoking is a selfish business .
My kids asked me to quit because of love , but how does an addict see that ... as shamed, as nagging ,as taking my right away and my freedom to do as I like .
I can't tell you how happy I am that I quit smoking for my children and myself .
Was it worth the hard work , the craves , the tears , the gut wrenching craves again to get through to the other side ? You bet it was .
If you are still trying to quit , then do ; if you are quitting for the first time you can do it . Put your stubborn side to good use
You are loved ..
love yourself too ,
don't love your cigarette more .