I thought about ...

[Maki]

Just grateful for not smoking this morning . I hope you are too . 

I thought about how many I may have already smoked this morning had this been years ago , likely about five already and it's 7 in the morning . 

I thought about my upcoming trip and about how stressed I am and would have smoked more just thinking about it . 

I thought about the hotel room having to be a smoking room . 

I thought about the bus ride and how I'd worry whether it would stop often enough for smoke breaks . 

I thought about how sure I had to be that I had enough cartons of cigarettes packed in my suitcase . 

I thought about the smell . Perfume packed ? Check

I thought about the anxiety this all caused . 

I thought about how hard it was to quit and how easy it was to light up . 

I thought about the tears I cried when I quit ; the anger inside . 

I thought about my freedom . 

I thought about how grateful I am not to be tied down to addictive thoughts anymore and then I smiled and said 

                 I Am Grateful 

                                                                 Are you grateful this morning ?