Still no idea where to put things here , conversation or blog . So I just keep putting things in my blog .
One thing I discovered is I used to smoke when things were complicated , ( not putting down the site ) it's been so welcoming here , it's just an observation of how I created my own anxiety and anxiety wanted calmness and the only way I thought I could get that was to smoke . Sometimes chain smoked . It didn't help .
Now I can be flabbergasted and my breath can be taken away by multiple things that cause anxiety, but I don't need a smoke . I do handle things much better without them . I'm much calmer , I can think better , look for solutions more calmly and act on them .
Life is busy , life is good .