I’m not really sure what a blog is I’ve never done one before but somebody suggested I do
My user ID is take back my life because that’s exactly how I felt when I joined this site
I just wanted to take the time to introduce myself my name is Madeleine and I started smoking at 14 I quit smoking for the first time at 20 years old I have had numerous quits for numerous years At the time but The five or six times I went back to smoking probably more than that I don’t even know I’ve lost count I got hooked again in a matter of weeks And every time I try to quit again it is hard is the first time I think it might even be harder because the first time I quit I was so excited I was actually able to quit
that kept me going for a long time Now it’s harder For me because I keep telling myself you can quit when you want you’ve done it before anyway this time I’ve been smoking since July after three years of quitting and this is my Third or fourth quit date I feel like such an addict
I smoked about 15 cigarettes yesterday just because I knew I was going to quit today
I bought a pack and smoked A few and then put them in my neighbors front door because I didn’t want to just put water on them and throw them out and she still smokes
I actually snuck back three times and got another cigarette or two out of the box And then put the box back again. Anyway it’s very embarrassing
well today is day one Again and it was a really good day and I was super motivated all day but it was hard on the way home from work that’s One of my triggers
Most of the time I smoke it is Because I feel Lonely or bored
Which sounds absolutely crazy since I am a mother of three happily married and work full-time and I have to go to my moms every other night of the week since my dad died and I am always complaining that I’ve got too much to do
Well enough about me for now I’ll check in again later I’m not sure how this all works as far as the blogs go
