No excuses

[Lauralives]

I am not going to present my case for smoking today.  It doesn't matter.  Crap.  These traps are getting me.  One more day.  Oh, I can't handle this.  I wasn't going to tell anyone but that is not me.  I cannot lie and here I am again.  I have all the info I need right here.  I made a list and ignored it.  It is my decision and I take responsibility for it.  Only I can decide and the buck stops with me.  I'm so angry, sad, frustrated, disgusted and just plain sick and tired of myself.  I'm sorry.  Laura