Frustrated

[Lady86]

Hello all. I'm having some bad thoughts about smoking. It's so incredibly hard living and being around smokers all the time !!! I live with three people, all smokers. We had an agreement when I was a smoker that we only smoke in the garage during winter. It's been nice for the last month and they haven't made any effort to go outside. This was a luxury not a privilege and to only be used as little as possible. I chill in the garage and hang out with my dog and the gym equipment is in there. They say they're proud of me and I'm doing so good yet I feel so disrespected when they don't even try to go out. Last year when I mentioned this to them they were upset and rude to me. And here we are again this year. I know it's a weak way to think but a part of me is saying if you can't beat them join them. I feel so alone

sometimes. Non smokers don't really care about the constant struggle and vigilance I must retain and I don't really know what smoker's think around me   . I know I won't smoke but it's easy to get rattled even after a year quit. Anyway thanks for reading this. Stay strong.