So I am over here on this website now ....reading about brain maps and emotional sobriety .
We Can't Treat Cancer in 30 Days. Why Do We Think Treating Addiction is Any Different? - BreakingTheCycles.com
I at one point in time thought i was an emotional drunk . I am sober or so I thought until my reading of blogs here lead me to the breakingthecycles.com website. I am still an emotional drunk and a selfish addict. Nicotine was my most precious of addictions but there have been others . I "beat" them but I give credit to my precious ciggies because I still had cigarettes no matter what else I gave up . Alcohol drugs chocolate shopping you name it. I truly believe at this point in time that because of the way our brains are wired, some of us are more susceptible to addiction . And because of that ( I being one of those people ) I need to we need to be kind to ourselves and not think of ourselves as weak. I get into that whole beat my self up mentality which could be another bad toxic habit who knows.
Anyway I could master it all but I still had my precious cigs. I no longer wish to be addicted to anything . I crave balance in my life and I crave LIFE! So at day 24 why do I think and I do think I should be stronger than this . i should be over it . Aren't there people who just stopped and went on with it ? I want to be them. Why can't I ? Because see above?
I am not going to smoke . I won't smoke . But you know I know most recovery programs last for 30 days. We have heard new habits are learned in 3 weeks right ? Maybe i am just frustrated and impatient not maybe I am that .
Being here helps me a lot it helps me to vent which in turn actually empowers my quit. I know I am whining like a drug addict would ...now wouldn't they . Yes the addicted brain is still there which is why I feel this paralysis in my life , which is why am don't feel the forward momentum .
WAAAAH whine sniff sniff lol that is my emotional drunk I suppose the one who likes to wallow . So i need to read up on recovering my emotions .
My reading here today was eye opening brought me to a whole new level of understanding of this addiction.
I am grateful to all of you here who post and comment and blog . You are all priceless and my new precious thing .
NOPE and SNOT happening today