My 14 year old grandson is at school saying he wants to kill his self. Cops are there he is 600 miles away from me. So I am freaking out ripped off my patch I am going to buy cigarettes. Mean while I can't talk to anyone at his school cause I am not on the list. Still going out of my mind I call my mother and she says calm down and don't smoke you have came to far.so I put patch back on. Later on the kids home. Saying if I come to you you will put me in the hospital. I said dam right because you would need help. Lot of cussing from him. No calming down then I say just pray for you. Well I am athelist. Oh hell panic again. I said just don't kill yourself we care and love you. That was the end of the call. So now I am filling fear panic. My man as been supportive all I can do is worry and pray. But I didn't smoke. If it hadn't been for my mom and partner I no I would have. I really want one bad. But ant going to do it
