Thank you all! I remember@ 2 years ago something that Storm wrote about "choice" just finally clicked in my head. Not that the road was easy but I was in control. which was so important to me with so much of my life out of my control.
DH seems to be requiring more care or maybe because it's because I am older. Anxiety is under control and that feels good.My sweet little Annie (beagle rescue that looks like Grandpa Munster) is still with me and spoiled rotten. That's the way it should be.
I recognize many names, some of who were my biggest cheerleaders. Learn from everyone, especially the elders. They would not be here if they were not full of caring and concern. They do have answers.