I've learned a thing or two about eagerness this time around: without wisdom and restraint to inform my decision-making, eagerness can add up to a whole lot of trouble when the dust settles and disappointment arrives to take its place.
Of course the use of tobacco is a habit in one sense, but much more than that when viewed in the proper context. Nicotine is an addictive substance --- a truth I conveniently overlooked in my zeal to quit --- and so now wisdom and restraint arrive to crash the party. Nicotine is my enemy, not just "smoking, the habit." I'm an addict no doubt --- a slave to a toxic substance!
On my way to quit day I'm searching myself and doing whatever I can to correct my course in the hopes of avoiding disaster when that day finally arrives. At first I followed the guidelines, choosing a quit day within the recommended parameters; afterward in a fit of zeal, I changed the day bringing it ever closer to today. Here I go, setting myself up for failure once more!
I'm adjusting my quit day once again in adherence to the recommendations. Part of doing things differently this time around is deceptively simple: I'm not going to operate according to the zeal of my eagerness. It's as pernicious as my addiction to nicotine!
