I started writing this blog last night with only two completed sentences I saved it to draft. I could laugh if not for crying. Some of you may know that my oldest sister has been very ill.
After coming here this morning and reading the blogs I thought it would be a good time to share. I think we EXers have the same mindset or on the same page at times when it comes to never ever taking another puff. indingrl.01.06.2011 and Marilyn.H.July.14.14. (Your recent blogs)
I will try to be as brief as possible. So here goes.
After having spent 8-10 hrs at the hospital with my sister these last two days, last night as I stepped on the elevator to leave that little sneaky addiction put the thought of smoking in my brain. Gosh, I said to myself. The addictive brain can be very sneaky when it thinks you are vulnerable. That is why the elders continuously say to the newbies
be vigilant, don't let your guard down.
If I had not made a commitment to never take another puff, I could be fooled to believe that I need to smoke. Since I have educated myself, deprogrammed, debunked the brainwashing and stopped the stinkin thinkin this was just a flicker of a thought. I understand the law of addiction therefore I did not allow this thought to fester but I recognized it for what it was, an EXcuse that could have been used to take a puff. Yes, EXcuses that is all they ever are. I have used and heard a lot of them (fill in the blank) ___________
I am thankful to be at a place on this journey to recognize that there is nothing in life that I have to smoke over. It is easier to say having EXperienced that I can. By relearning behavior and thinking I know that smoking does not help a thing. NOTHING. NADA, ZERO. Smoking was an addictive reaction to my cares and woes both highs and lows but now I can EXperience life and my emotions without sucking on a stinking stick of poison, wrapped in white paper, placed in pretty packaging, given a creative name along with the lie of "feel good". With a sincere commitment never to take another puff ever; along with the support here I am free. Thank God for deliverance. So today, I commit again: not in my hand, not in my mouth, not on my lips, not in my lungs, not on my tongue, not in my clothes, not up my nose, not in my throat I will not choke because I will not smoke Yes, my sister is ill but smoking is not going to help her in any shape form or fashion. Don't be fooled by the addiction. 4 years 358 days with a flicker the addictive brain can awaken but with a flicker, I can let it go. NOPE, No matter.
Do not be fooled, you do not have to smoke PERIOD.
Say it with me..... No matter what I will not smoke. It is possible NO MATTER WHAT