I wrote this blog 25 days into my quit. "Just one more" 2/19/15
Since the topic has been on "just one" it reminded me of how far I have come. Thanks EX community for helping me get there. NOPE has kept me free. SINAO smoking is not an option for me.
Last night I was up until the early hours of the morning, watching some Celeb Apprentice espisodes. As I sat there I was thinking how comfortably gratifying and calming it was that I did not have to focus on when or where I would be taking a smoke break. So let's get to the one more thought.
It has been 25 days since I told myself just one more, or this is the last one, or I'll do it when.... my grandson is born (16 yrs ago) ...when my granddaughter is born (10 yrs). Oh, this is the last one because I am the only one in the office who smokes. Just this last pack, telling myself, I'll do it for my New Year's resolution. Just one more then I will do it because my doctor advises it. No more !....because my husband died of heart disease. Of course, this is the last one because they are starting to cost a lot more. I could go on and on with this just one more.
Yes, I have had a few short quits here and there, but all for the wrong reasons. I finally had my ah ha moment when I decided to do it for ME. My quit date was my birthday. I was only two days late and it has been a great birthday gift to me from me. The thought that it has taken this long almost makes me want to cry but that's okay because with this quit I am learning to care about ME.,............................ finally I have had the last one.
I am a nonsmoker. Thank God 928 DOF
