I have been off line for awhile. I have been feeling a bit of sadness lately and needed to stop thinking about smoking all together. I am still an ex-smoker, it will be one month on Monday. I am very proud of that. Some of you know I have been having issues with my voice since I quit smoking. This is still going on. I have seen my regular doctor who can not figure out what is going on and has referred me to an Ears, Nose and Throat Doctor. I have that appointment later today.
I have been waiting for this appointment for almost two weeks now. There have some difficult thoughts going through my head. The internet has not helped and I should not have researched my symptoms. During my reading prior to my quit day I remember something about 'quitting before something bad happens as a result of smoking'. Today I fear I did not quit soon enough. I have not talked about this with anyone other this blog post. There is a part of me that is hoping everything is fine and I'm just over reacting, there is a bigger part of me that feels I do have some kind of a problem as result of smoking.
I am asking for your advice and thoughts and prayers this afternoon.
Thank you for giving me space to vent something I have not been able to talk about.