47 freaking days

Blog Post created by Gergzz on Apr 7, 2020

   Hey guys, Today was day 47 and it feels like its getting worse. WHEN WILL I FEEL OK? I don't feel normal. It is getting to the point where I don't care the health consequences in the future I just want to feel normal and sane. I don't think Its mood swings because It is only brought on by this weird spacey, lightheaded feeling that then triggers anxiety. Is that what a craving is? I still feel it slightly now, but it is for the most part gone. I have tried the breathing, but thats only when it's already hitting. It is so scary I cannot explain it. When it is happening it feels like nothing can distract me.


   I am all by myself tonight which makes it worse not having anyone to talk to. If anyone can relate or give any new advice I would greatly appreciate it. I just keep having thoughts of like I have a special case and I'm the only one who's going to have to deal with this panic inducing feeling for the rest of my existence. I don't even want to vape, I just want to do whatever will make this awful feeling stop.


Sorry to be a downer again