So today is day 5 for me-I know expectations can work against me. I am thinking hey Im thru the hardest part- and then the urge comes on!! AArrgh! I won't let it get me down.
Glad Im on the site to hear and get encouragement from others- I know I smoked at a lot of emotions- smoking at discouragement just feeds on itself- defeated mentality- Ive lived with that a lot - as well as trauma and drama and chaos in these last 4 years- marriage- constant drama-
Today is a new week for me- smoke free- I want to feel great about this- sometimes it feels like I won't let myself
feel good about myself- that I guess is also part of the recovery process
Today- I am getting strong urges again- so I just need to stay with my commitment- to not smoke no matter what-breathe thru and let whatever comes up emotionally- come up- don't fight it. I used cigarettes to hold down painful emotions- I huffed em down- I could feel the desperation sometimes as i smoked those horrible foul smelling cancer sticks-trying not to feel what I don't want to feel
Thx Ex Community!
