I'm going to keep practicing all that I'm learning and make a new quit day for after my divorce. I don't know why I thought I would be able to quit on determination. Everything else I do takes me a long time to get used to so I see this will be the same. I'm not giving up on it though, I'm going to count each day I do better than average as a victory!
I guess it's the difference between really WANTING to do something and being ready to do the WORK.