Another year older and don't really feel any different. Yes I can see the changes inside of me from when I was young to who I am now. I don't know if I would have changed my past but it made me who I am today. Sometimes I wish I could stop the clock from counting days as if they were stars in the sky. No one really knows what's going to happen to us. I know I used to hack and cough constantly and now I cough on occassion but not at violently as they were. Yes the damage is done but I'm trying hard to keep things at bay by not smoking, taking the medications prescibed for me and trying not to make foolish decisions. I can't say all the stuff I've done has been perfect as I don't believe any of us are. Yeah my actual birthday was a couple of days ago but it's only a number and doesn't show what I feel inside. I just know that time is creeping away slowly and I am not going to take any time for granted. I've learnt my strengths, weakness and what makes me shine inside. Some of it you can all see and some are hidden pretty deep inside. Either way - I'm happy just to be alive.