Yesterday I was a nervous anxiety ridden man. Working on a project with a looming deadline, the recipient of which is a tough client also served to intensify the illusion that I needed to vape. It’s a lot of things...hand to mouth cigarette simulation accompanied by that throat hit followed by that feeling that the nicotine receptors have been satisfied of course for only a moment and then the repeated need to keep filling the coffers. Crazy! Whenever I vape I never feel 100% well. I cough and my eyes turn red and and my overall well being feels “off”. Anyway with all of that nervousness and feeling decidedly not myself I somehow by the grace of God and support from the Ex community I made it to the end of the day without vaping.
Today I’m still working on my project but for some inexplicable reason I am feeling calmer and just going about tackling what I need to get done. I’m a goal oriented person, so pledging not to vape is hugely helpful and satisfying as the day moves along. I was reading Alan Carr’s book today who basically says to be the non-smoker you always wanted to be....and that’s what I’m doing. I’m being a non-smoker and today it’s great!
