I'm ok when I'm at work a majority of the time because I'm not allowed to leave for 7-8 hours, but the time that I'm there alone I tend to find a way to take a couple of drags. I've been smoking every day since 19 and now I'm 35. Sixteen years is a long time to give my life, my money and my time away to something that is killing me slowly on a day to day basis. This step that I'm taking is one of the hardest that I've ever taken in my life. It's like a reckless relationship that's hard to get out of. I just pray that God has mercy on me to have the strength and courage to break this habit.