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Im a 35 year old who has been smoking for 17 years. I'm beginning to see the tole it is taking on my body. Actually, I've seen the tole building over time but I've chosen to ignore it. I used to be a cross country runner in high school. I have stayed physically active and fit since then, but it has gradually decreased to the point that I am barely active at all. In fact, if I didn't have to walk my dog I'd be a couch potato. Unfortunately I know that this is not only due to the physical affects smoking has had on my body, but the mental affects as well. My self esteem has plummeted. I find reasons to not go on trips or hang out with certain people for fear of judgement. I used to smoke almost a pack a day. While I have cut back dramatically to about 3, I just can't cut the ties. I'm so thankful that there is a community of people and website I can go to during this daunting time. Unfortunately for me, I think smoking cannabis has also tied me to these stupid cigarettes as well, since they seem to go hand in hand for me. Ugh.... how did I dig myself so deep? ALSO: I bought a pare of roller skates, and that has been a great hobby to get my ass in gear again :-)