Is It Worth It?

[DimArtist]

I have been smoking for a full month. The first thing I want to do in the morning is to have a cigarette with my coffee. To be honest I don't want to stop because I enjoy it. It wakes me up, it wakes my mind and my whole body. Sometimes I stop it and very soon I fail. I've been smokefree for 3 days and I sleep all day. All day long. I feel sleepy as hell, I can't do anything, I have no purpose to do anything. I don't want to do anything. I sleep for 12 hours and then I sleep for 3 hours in the evening. That's not me. I get angry because of that. Smoking helps me being alert and do things. Right now I really like it. I have been reading and preparing to my quit day but all I do is keep failing. Why every time I quit smoking I sleep so much? My mind can't wake up and I am extremely frustrated. I can't keep up anymore. I am torturing myself and I hate feeling sleepy all day long. I didn't have so much trouble in the past, some panic attacks forced me to start smoking again but I don't see the reason why to quit now. I know all the health benefits but it's nothing compares to how I feel right now and it doesn't stop. It's not just 10 minutes to make me want to smoke, it's all day. I really need some help, some advice from your personal experience.