~~And on Tuesdays you must look at yourself in the mirror and say "I am worthy. I need to be here. And I am grateful that I am. There is beauty in my life and I will find it. There is strength in my soul and I will trust it. There is purpose in my path and I will unravel it. There is magic in who I am and I will believe in it." And then go climb your mountains for today. And go find some spectacular views.~~ S.C. Lourie/Butterfliesandpebbles
It's hard sometimes not to get dragged into the muddled thoughts in your own head. It can be hard to reject those negative opinions you have of yourself. And it's oh, so easy to turn back to smoking so you can finally stop feeling like every moment is a struggle.
But then you lose, right? By giving up or giving in, you are in reality telling yourself that smoking means more to you than your life does. That the 'struggle' to remain smoke free is too hard for you. That the addiction is too strong. That your life isn't worth the pains to quit smoking.
I disagree. I don't even have to know you to strongly, loudly disagree!! Because you mean something to someone here on earth. Now those of us who have never gone through the agony of losing someone close to us may not understand the huge, gaping hole that is forever left by our loved one dying. It doesn't get better and it doesn't mend. We just get used to the pain. So, getting back to you, you mean something to someone here. Someone's heart will break if they lost you. You won't be here to see it, of course, but secretly in your heart, you know how devastating it would be to those who love you if they lost you. And to lose you to smoking????? Their heartbreak would be intensified by their anger...towards Big Tobacco, towards cigarettes, towards....you because you refused to quit.
And what about you? Quit dismissing the fact that your life matters!! You have mountains you want to climb and dreams you want to reach for and goals you want to achieve. They matter, my friend. YOU matter. And you make a difference by being here on earth. To your family. To your friends. To us.
Smoking takes everything away. From you. From those who love you. Time. Being present. Making memories. Laughter. Light. Warmth. Smoking takes it all and simply disappears when it gets you ill or kills you. Gone. It doesn't hang around to say "Sorry". It doesn't hold your daughter's hand while she cries at your funeral. It doesn't reimburse the expenses for long hospital stays or chemotherapy or breathing treatments.
So how about just hanging on to your quit one more day? How about saying "I'm worth it" one more time? How about breathing through one more crave? Because, just for now, you know quitting will bring you the freedom to love, to life, to have another chance. One more day may mean a forever quit.
This isn't meant to be a sad post. This isn't doom and gloom. This is all about life...your life. And fulfilling your dreams, loving those who love you, and knowing that you've been put here on earth for a purpose. The universe itself needs your presence. So hold on just one more day.