I Hesitated

Blog Post created by Dancingthrulife_6.4.13 on May 9, 2019

~~Make up your mind to act decidedly and take the consequences.  No good is ever done in this world by hesitation.~~  Thomas Huxley


So I was reading blogs like I enjoy doing and someone was stressed while wanting to quit smoking.  Of course, being the wonderful ex community it is, several lovely people jumped right in to welcome the new Exer and offer support.


I hesitated.  I didn't mean to.  I am good at making people feel welcome 99% of the time.  I have experience, I know what I'm doing, and I love doing it.  But I hesitated.  What if.....


  • what if I sounded indifferent
  • what if I sounded self-righteous
  • what if I sounded like judgmental


I am human....excruciatingly human.  When someone jabs me with their idea of me over and over again, it hurts.  It leads me not to wonder if they are right....I know they are not....but it leads me to wonder if others are seeing me that way to.  Because social media doesn't show faces....because social media isn't conducive to good communication...because we often don't know how we appear to others.  


This is me at my worst.  Self-doubting.  I'm also tired, overworked, and busy so I know I'm not thinking as clearly as I should.  


But I know this is a quit smoking site....the BEST in the business!!  And that's what we should focus on.  Since I am hesitant right now, I believe it's time to take a break, rejuvenate, and not stir up anything but happy thoughts and contented quits


To that new Exer who is stressed, may you learn how to take one step at a time into a world filled with self-love and glorious peace.  To the other new quitters who face their own self-doubts and fears, quitting is the opposite of all those negative emotions.  Keep your face to the sun and its warmth will remind you that you can, in fact, quit.  


And to the elders who keep the site filled with magic, God smiles at you and nods His head in approval.  You give with love.  Thank you