~~Sometimes, the people who have been through many storms often take the longest to find their path because their sensitivity is a double edged sword. At their core lies great strength but they are more susceptible to life's pains. Good thing the soul doesn't know a thing about deadlines.~~ Unknown
I often come here and write. Most of the time I just want to help others quit smoking. Still, sometimes it is my way of getting out all the feelings I can't express verbally to others in my life. Other times, it's simple a release of emotion from something that caused me pain.
This isn't the place for those kind of posts. I know that. I'm looking at other avenues...finding my place, so to speak, to just write. I haven't yet found my path but I know I'm headed in the right direction
I just wanted to let you know that no matter what I've been through...no matter if my heart was hurt or my feelings crushed or how lost I felt....I never felt like turning back to smoking to cope. The answers to life will never be found hidden in addiction. Hurts won't heal through addiction either. They will only be ignored for as long as the effects of that cigarette linger....until you need another to once again hide the pain. The cycle is so subtle yet vicious that you never even realize it's got you until you see know way to function without it.
Smoking cures nothing, fixes nothing. It traps you. It stifles creativity and limits your potential. Truly. So you may feel 'relief' because of those few 'slips' but you may be fooling yourself (as addicts do). Quitters don't smoke. And you know what? Quitters learn other coping skills until they finally reach a point where they don't want to smoke when things are bad.
Ok, so I veered a bit off course here I have chosen a career where bad things happen to children. Where parents are often lost children who never outgrew their own abuse at the hands of others. Where the system often adds to the problems rather than assists and supports. I've been doing this for over 20 years. And you would think I would have become hardened and cynical. Maybe I am, I don't know. But the pain of a child still has the power to break me. So I write and I care and I do what I can. I will find my way maybe through a change in how I work with families or maybe in the way I cope with working with these families. I just know that this site is not my personal journaling ground I need to find other avenues to release emotions.
I will, of course, still support and cheer on all the marvelous people who have found the courage to quit smoking!! That is what we do here!