~~There is no need to be perfect to inspire others. Let others get inspired by how you deal with your imperfections.~~ Unknown
I shared so much of my life on ex over the years. The heartbreaks, sorrow, confusion....maybe, perhaps, looking for validation or maybe hoping someone could fix it or maybe just spilling my guts as life pushed my buttons. Back when I had smoker mentality, I always felt lost and like I didn't get life.
Fast forward five years and here I am. A dear friend of mine is dying of kidney disease. She made a conscious decision to stop dialysis and die with dignity. We are now having such fun together during the time she has left! We talk, we laugh, we support each other, we...well, we live! My thoughts are all about her and making sure she knows how much better the world is because she is in it.
So here I am back at Ex but not, this time, to seek validation or hoping for an easy fix or even just spilling my guts. This time I am here to say that quitting smoking was a process that enlightened and strengthened me. I can take care of myself now even when I have no control over events or situations. Quitting gifts you with confidence, courage, and a kind of poise that allows you to flow through life with the knowledge that you will make it through no matter what is going on.
Yes, there is sorrow. Yes, there is loss. Life has highs and lows whether you smoke or not. But when I smoked, I felt...weaker. As a quitter, I am so much more able. Able to handle things, able to get through, able to see things more clearly.
We talk about life, my friend and I. We talk about death as well. And we laugh at ourselves a lot
I hope you may also find you are much more able to flow through life.....