Day 106 - Smoking Nightmares !

Blog Post created by DLHaffner on Jun 19, 2018

I had an extremely vivid smoking nightmare this morning right before I woke up.  In the nightmare, I smoked a whole cigarette while driving.  I even remember putting it out.  I won't describe it in any further detail than that because it makes me ekkkkkkkkk!  I felt horrible in the nightmare after putting it out like....that sucked and now I'm a smoker again.   This is terrible!!!!  Then I woke up and realized that I was still an ex-smoker and felt relieved but still shaken.  Man, I really want to stay an ex-smoker but it definitely feels like my addiction is doing push-ups in the background lately.  Last night I felt super anxious, my heart was racing, for no reason.  Nothing was wrong.  I just took deep breaths and re-focused my energy on something else.  Eventually, I felt calmer.  The vividness of it is definitely lingering today though.


Have you had any vivid nightmares of returning to the hell that is smoking?  How did you handle it?  Did you have any unexplainable anxiousness?