My last few posts were regarding erratic, in retrospect irritational, frustrations and anger with my husband, friends, and or co-workers. Today I feel pretty good. Make a note, my feelings change regularly. I love the saying that the good news is nothing last forever! It's also sometimes the bad news. Ying and Yang. To every down feeling I've experienced I have experienced an equally awesome good feeling. I said it before and I say it again, Feelings aren't Facts! I have, for the most part, less a few uncontrolled outbursts, managed to contain my cranky pants thinking to myself OR posted it here and received much-needed support and constructive feedback. Thank you to the awesome regular members of the EX Community!!!
At day 43 here's just a few of the things I am truly grateful for...
- I'm GRATEFUL to God that I am a non-smoker for today!
- Deep clear, crisp clean breaths..all day long
- This site, those before and after me in non-smokerness.
- The daily pledge
- Smelling the shampoo and body wash in the shower in the morning
- My clothes smell good, I don't have to wash them as much- less laundry! Score!
- My hair smells good
- I eat breakfast when I wake up now
- Driving with my windows rolled up or down or however...no longer have to keep them down all the time
- It doesn't look like an ash blizzard inside my car (and I've only washed it twice in the last 43 days)
- I can sit down and relax when I get home from work and watch a whole show without pausing it
- I went for a 3-mile bike ride on Sunday and at the gym Saturday I was doing cardio and realized I was breathing through my nose and not gasping for air like I normally do
- I can be in the moment, I'm not plotting how I can get away from people so I can hide and smoke
- My cravings have diminished substantially...although I am still watching for them, like last night after I had pizza.
- Best gift ever, my stomach and related issues seem to be regulating
There are of course many more things for which I am grateful. I will be flying for the first time as a non-smoker in May and I can't wait to not have to rush outside to suck a cigarette down before my family arrives to pick me up. In reality, it's SO much easier being a non-smoker...I don't even have to do anything...I just have to NOT do something...just procrastinate.