Last night I found out the guy I had a crush on who collaborated with me who had the crush on me back turned around and ended up getting back together with his ex girlfriend. I feel disappointed and led on. But I respect his wishes.
My whole love life is filled with disappointments.
The first guy I partnered with ended up to be an emotionally abusive person, which changed me.
The second guy had problems and chose to live with a parent and refuse move out of the nest
The thurd guy thought he could get any girl he wanted and failed to properly open up to me after a year of dating
The forth guy wanted to rush into marrying me after 2 weeks of dating, not to mention other complications regarding his untreated mental illnesses.
I then went back to the second guy and that only lasted another 3 months thinking it was going to get better. But I stopped that also because I was too emotionally and mentally unwell at the time and he criticized me saying that commitment wasn't my strong suit.
I have had nothing but false hope and have lost all hope!
So There isn't much I can do in the love sector. I'm just going bury myself in writing music and tell myself to stop having feelings for people all together.