My goodness, today started out just fine, everything was pleasant, I felt good like I could accomplish something big. I had not a care in the world, and no cravings fo speak of.
Well, I am writing this because I feel vunerable right now. Oh, I know I won't smoke, or vape, that isn't the problem... It's the feeling of the addiction taking over my brain, the nicotine receptors screaming for a fix. Knowing that this is where I usually give in, or I don't even make it this far.
I don't want nicotine but my brain does. It however will have to get over it... It is never getting nicotine ever again. N.O.P.E. Not even one puff. The cravings are pretty annoying right now, but I know that I have a great community here where I can be comforted by the words of my fellow Ex's.
The reason that I am writing right now is because, in a few minutes I have to get in my car and go get a soda for my mom. I have the feeling of dread. I know that I will be okay, it is just hsrd right now, but I know that it truely is getting better all the time, and that this too shall pass.
