Give up giving up.

[Christophina]

It was suggested to me here by one of the elders that perhaps I had never truly given up nicotine.

mmm pause for thought. 

oops.

I wonder how true that is for the many.

My quits were impressive...well to me anyway....20 years while my children grew up.  

What kind of idot would start again? 

(Falling in love with a smoker was my excuse once)

Ok I'll come clean.  

I have always had a tiny thought in the back of my mind that if I can't manage without nicotine, I don't have to.

(That was me being kind and encouraging to myself)

That thought was with me as a teenager.

When I arrived here the thought had long been: Before I buy tobacco I can buy nicotine gum or if I smoke I can give up with the gum. 

No. Wait.

N.O.P.E. Not One Puff Ever

Or chew.

I am working on that tiny feisty thought and for the most part I experience the joy of another nicotine free day.

I have given up giving up. The battle is won. 

The enemy was me. I was the saboteur.

Heartfelt thanks to the elders for helping me look in the mirror when I stumbled across this site.

I'm getting so good at looking after myself and being my own best friend.