I'm on day 4 today.

Blog Post created by Christine13 on Aug 28, 2020

Yes, I'm on the dreaded day four.  I am having cravings, and also smokemares every night.  Last night I dreamt I was in prison.  There were no cigarettes, and I thought good, at least my quit is safe.  I am pledging every day and honouring that pledge.  I have no rescue or emergency cigarettes.  I don't need gas, so there will be no going to the gas station to tempt me.  I have been isolating for over two weeks due to a sore throat.  I'm on antibiotics but they don't seem to be working.  Next thing to do is get a COVID test if I finish them and I'm not better.  Every morning I get up and come to EX, and then I go sit out on the deck, and pray for strength, and for god to help me get through my last quit.

I go through my daily prayer list for others too.  I realize I am very fortunate, not to be in any life threatening instances like those in California, Louisiana, or Texas.  I know I can make good, as long as I have the desire to do this.  I know it get's better along the way too.  I guess before I just gave myself excuse after excuse.  I guess I didn't want to do the work.  Now I want to do the work to make it through.  There is a difference.