Feeling better today. Thanks to all who responded on my blog yesterday. I am ok. Talked to my councillor yesterday, and a lot of friends too and my daughter. I think Brian and I did have a great love story. I am not angry at him anymore. I talked to his brother and he said if he didn't want me he would have left me a long time ago.
I had suspected the betrayal, but didn't quite know when it was. Now I know. I have confirmation.
I wasn't crazy, I knew something he was hiding from me, him and his brother. I thought it was money, but it was this.
I move forward today, I have love notes from after that time, from him. I also know he probably felt very guilty,
because that year he kept insisting I buy a new computer, and he spent over 1,000.00 to get me my mac.
Brian never spent a lot of money, but I told him, he gave me the best gift he ever could have. From that day forward, I new he was mine again. He's not here to defend himself now, so I'm going to move forward. I love him, I wasn't always easy to live with either. I am also going to get back with my quit very soon. Probably today or tomorrow or Monday. I'm not sure. My oldest daughter will be over today, and I'm sure we will have a good visit. I think I can actually eat something today and not feel sick. Giulia you hit the nail on the head. I've been here a long time.
Since I was diagnosed with breast cancer, almost 9 years ago. It's time to forgive Brian and move on. I always did love him unconditionally. It's high time, I kept a quit, and become an Elder here. I thank you all for your loving support.