Christine13

Coming Up.

Blog Post created by Christine13 on May 9, 2018

Finally I am looking forward to the challenge of remaining smoke free.  Friday will be what would have been our 44th wedding anniversary.  It's only been 4 months since Brian passed.  I started over yesterday, and I am willing to really challenge all my moods and emotions without the cancer sticks.  Last week was a heck of a week, with much anxiety and panic about everything.  It will only happen now, because I'm willing to start a new life without Brian and do the things I really need to do to stay quit.  Already my lungs feel better and now I have my garden to work in and the nice weather to appreciate.  So many people here have been kind to me, and patient and supportive.  I am very grateful.

I pretty much isolated myself last week because I was feeling so terrible.  I spent too many days alone, and will take steps to avoid that in the week coming up.  I have been here a long time, and should have many years quit by now.

If it weren't for my EX family to keep me trying I would have given up a long time ago.  So now there is no more try, there is only do!  xoxo

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