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Sometimes

Christine13
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Sometimes I get scared, what if I will never get my forever quit?  I relapsed on Friday.  Was in no man's land, and feeling very depressed that day.  I just couldn't get it off my mind (smoking) I walked for some and got a pack.

My worst nightmare.  I blew a perfectly good quit, when I should have blogged and asked for help.

I have reset my quit day and today I am quit.  It wasn't worth the one, or the package that followed.

I have shaken off the depression and the ugly cry I had after that cleansed my soul not the cigs.

I have to hold it together, I have to. 

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I'm a widow now, my husband passed away January 1, 2018 He died of COPD, and pre leukemia and the flu. He quit smoking 15 years ago which gave him extra time. I am a mother, and grandmother. I have smoked for 47 years. I am going to have my forever quit and I'm doing it for me and my two daughters so I can live longer and be with them. I like to read, swim, garden, crochet, paint and doodle. I also enjoy walking and visiting with friends and family. I am 100% making this my last quit. I have been in denial about what smoking has done to me and my kids. I must make a new life for myself and it doesn't include cigarettes. I may already have COPD, but have not been officially diagnosed.