Ok, I am starting my journey once again. This time I am moving forward and I finally have time to devote to being on Ex. I am so relieved to be finally doing this. I have reset my quit date, and I know my Ex family has always been so supportive. This is a real life changer, and I'm willing to go through my emotional roller coaster. I am committing to myself and my EX family. Thanks to my good friend Marilyn, and Ellen and their blogs and friendship, I will remain vigilant and tied to this site.
I think I am a surface learner, all these years, and all the denial I've had about smoking and how serious a thing it really is. This is serious stuff, I've got to learn to cope without going for my major comfort, smoking. It has been 47 years of smoking for me............long time eh? stupid (to myself) There is no one in my family that smokes anymore and I had 24 of them here for a family gathering for my daughter's Birthday. I am really grateful to finally have some down time to be here and read, read, read!! I've been doing that all day today, and everyday, that I had a chance. I'm sick and tired of making EXcuses for myself.............and I'm learning new ways to cope without smoking. I am quit!! That is important, but not only to say I'm quit, but to work the program for myself. I've always tried to quit for everyone else. This ones for me, because I am finally ready to say, I deserve freedom too!!