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Hey guys,
I don't know if it's because I'm coming up on a few tough weeks, but this "announcement" that we're all seeing on the top of our screens has me feeling...out of place. Here I was feeling comfortable posting here until BAM, changes. Not all changes are good, my friends.
I'm starting to feel better after being sick for over a week, but I've been emotional these past few days. It doesn't help that my period is coming next week (I'm sorry if that was TMI for some folks).
My biological mother's birthday is this coming Thursday. That always hits me hard. We don't have a relationship today.
My birthday is March 18. I share it with my twin. That is also the day one of my closest friends passed away in her sleep. The last day I worked with her was the day before she died, which was March 17, 2020. So, I'm coming up on the one year anniversary of her passing and also turning 42.
I've had a desire to smoke, and the feeling hasn't gone away. I know that smoking won't help, but I also want to forget about things for a while and get that high one gets from smoking that first cigarette.
I'm talking crazy, I know. These are the thoughts that are running through my head.
I'm also afraid of the changes Mark is doing to this website. Will I still see you guys, our will you guys leave? Changes are inevitable, but sometimes they give me so much anxiety.
So...yeah. That's where I'm at today.
Jen 
Pictured is Hannah and I sitting on the kitchen counter of my old apartment. I miss her so much. 6-9-15
