My journey to a healthier Me - Day 6

Blog Post created by Camomof3 on Mar 1, 2018

I have smoked since I was 18 with short periods of quit that has last anywhere from 3 months to a year and somehow I always go back to it each time with something triggering my actions.  About 3 years ago, I switch from smoking cigarettes to vaping and slowly lowering my nicotine level with the intent to stop during those few years. I figure I just need to do it rather than making up excuses, so as of last week, I stopped cold turkey.  Doing fairly well....  First couple of days was fine because I was keeping busy and went out, but then, work started and day 3 to present, it started getting a bit tougher since I use to just sit at my desk and vape.  So, instead, I kept trying to find snacking to replace my anxiety and restlessness (from healthy snacks to not so healthy snacks).  BUT, I didn't falter.


Yet, here we are on day 6....  and I can't seem to get my mind off an actual cigarette to help with my emotional state.  My daughter told me that she had a fight with her best friend and was on the crisis line because of suicidal thoughts.  She has been under therapy for depression for the past few months and I'm just so overwhelmed and frustrated because I have no idea how to help and her ability to communicate her feelings on what is causing these depressions pretty much sums it up with "I don't know."  This is weighing on me and as much as I hate to, I really want to run out and purchase a pack and have a cigarette to help me cope with these emotions.  Trying everything I can to not give in...  UGH!!!!!


The only thing keeping me in check right now is just how I don't want to lose those 6 nicotine free days.