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Today I actually had an unlit cigarette in my mouth and was all set to light it up ! I was very angry at my friend I won't get into the why's and the she said this and I said that ....no point to that, but I will say I was about to light one of her cigarettes in the car while arguing with her not because I really wanted to smoke but out of spite ! Thankfully I was able to stop myself before I blew it ! I realized who would I be hurting ? No one but myself ! It was a close call though..... to close for comfort !
This anger management after quitting has been very difficult for me . I am a rebellious person by nature and usually my friend ,even though she is a smoker ,will refuse to give me a cigarette when I get tempted but the last few times she didn't really try to stop me I really had to rely on my own self control . It was a bit scary but I made it through .
I am glad you all are here because in the back of my mind even during the "crisis" I think of all of you, my elders, my mentors, my advisers, my cheer leaders, my quit buddies and even you newbies ...... when I am weak I know the power of the group keeps me hanging on !
You hold me up !
