Bonnie

120 Days Today...

Blog Post created by Bonnie on May 6, 2018

So...I THINK that means I may be out of No Man's Land...but I'm not going to wipe the desert sand off my boots until after Mother's Day...the last of the "hurtful holidays" that start with Thanksgiving...thank GOD it's on a Sunday and I can go to church in the morning and I've got two beautiful Mother's Day cards at work on discount to send to my daughters, and my granddaughter made a present for her mom yesterday at my house and I will think of my mom and know that she is with me even though I can't see her.  It's all good and work's going OK (didn't make any mistakes the last two days I worked) and I DO think I have some form/version of ADD which is why I self-medicated with various substances, including nicotine, and I ordered a book to read up on it more.  

 

I want to thank you all for being here, I couldn't have done it without you.  It's been a journey of self-knowledge this time, for sure, and it is comforting to know that the feelings and struggles I have been through are just part of the deal, and I even "confessed" to a couple of church friends today that it's been 120 days. My goal is to be the same person in all circumstances (the essence of moral behavior, I read once) and my "closet-smoker" days are over....I do believe my "any-kind-of-smoker" days are over

 

I couldn't have done it without you...it means more to me than I can put into words...

 

oldbones-larry a special thanks to you as my first EXer friend  and for your wisdom, strength and wonderful imagery in guiding me through this perilous part of my journey.  God's Peace Be With You....

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