I did it!!!!

[Beck37]

My first day of work in 37 years that I did not have a cigarette!!!!! I was dreading today and it wasn’t easy. Slept really badly last night. There is nothing worse than the first day back at work after vacation. And in my line of work it’s worse the first of the month after a holiday and throw in the fact that I quit smoking 9 days ago and we are talking STRESS!!!!

Could make this really long and boring and tell you all the stuff I did to be successful today, but won’t. Work is my trigger. Stress is my trigger. At the beginning of the day my anxiety was high, took a deep breath and plowed thru it. Was concerned about my ability to concentrate but again took a deep breath and did it. I can remember getting excited when I knew it was almost time for my break only to be let down seconds later realizing that my breaks didn’t include smoking anymore. I took a brisk walk. I did deep breathing. 

Again, it was not an easy day, but I did it and by the end of the day I felt so amazingly empowered. I felt like I could conquer the world but for now will settle for a good night sleep.

Tomorrow is my first double digit quit day!!!!