Just went grocery shopping and stood there and looked at the cigarettes. Talked myself out of buying them and decided if I really want them that bad when I get home, there are lots of stores nearby. Then I got home to my (in)significant other and I am literally crying because I normally would be smoking now to calm me down.
The only way I can think of to describe this is "this sucks".
Just needed to vent!
Barb
It's always the emotional trials that get to us! You're passing this one and putting it behind you! It certainly does suck. But smoking sucks more. Keep up the great work!
Oh, I'm so sorry. Take a couple deep breaths. Close your eyes, and stretch you neck slowly from side to side while you breath in and out. It works to calm me. You are almost 2 weeks quit; you can do this.
And please keep venting, it is what we are here for, vent, cry (I cried a LOT in the first 3 month or so), it is normal, you are "losing" a way to deal with stress but learning new ways; the new ways are healthy, and will keep you build your freedom from smoke.
Well done!
Hey Barb, so sorry you're having a tough go of it today, I completely understand. I am proud of you for passing up the cigs! Great job!
You vent when you need to! This is the place to do it! I agree with breathing techniques, If you don't know any look some up online. I find breathing to be the most quick method for calming myself down. Once I can accomplish that, I can find other ways to distract myself.
I think I am 2 days ahead of you in my quit and this is certainly a trying time even if you made a decision not to smoke. We are in the process of learning that we don't need the cigs because they don't really improve life. You will get by this but please realize smoking will not cure what ails you!
Let's get through this day friend. Have yourself a cry to release it and find something else to do today!
Kim
It does suck - and then all of a sudden it gets better and you realize that it was worth it. Do something - any thing to get your mind off of it. You will be so happy and proud tomorrow that you made it through this day.
It totally sucks barb. Vent all you need to it really helps. By the time you're done blogging about it, the craving has usually passed.
I still here reading! Thanks
You've got this girly!
Lady!!!!!! you gave me shivvers in my arms to think of you standing there and looking at cigarettes.... Are yuou crazy girrl??? Why tempt yourself, why test your strength? Why torture yourself? I can't even go to the grocery store because I know they sell cigarettes there. I am on 9 days quit. I cannot bear to see cigarette smoking on tv. I am not good at handling temptation and just you writing about looking at cigarettes ........ woooooh. don't do it. Don't even look at them. don't think about them, do something else. just be like Scarlett O'hara
I hope you are not letting the nicodemon plan a relapse??? check out Planning a Relapse.
Type "relapse traps" in the community search bar and start reading. Here's something to start with: REPLAY THE RELAPSE
BUT IT WILL GET BETTER! (Don't forget your sense of humor!)
Hang in there, Barb! As hard as this all is, try to remember why you wanted to quit in the first place. Seriously---go back and look at your list or reasons. Hold on to those, take a few deep breaths (aren't those easier to do after two weeks?!), and then run a nice bubble bath. Soak, relax, and shake this off. Be kind to yourself.
Hold on tight.--Dawn
Hi Barb. I smoked for 52 years. It was hard to quit but I am oh so glad that I did. Looking at cigarettes in a store no longer phases me at all. I quit with this site 4 1/2 years ago. Hang in there. You are doing it!
Hang in there, Barb! I know how you're feeling. I'm on day 8 and while "hell week" might be over, it's still feeling pretty hellish! You've got this!
Perfectly normal. I remember just standing there staring and the poor check out girl thought I might be having a medical issue. Now I just look at the price of them and go wow, have those ever gone up. I avoided the express lane for about 3 months because that's where those little devils resided. Your thinking changes after awhile. Just be patient and trust the process, Trust the Process
You have made the decision not to smoke - now pull up your big girl panties and get busy. DO something. DO NOT think that you want a cigarette 'cause, well, you really don't - right.? You just want the uncomfortable part to be over. You can deal with that without smoking! Get to it! This takes some effort in the early days, but it will be worth it - I promise.
We elders all were in your place in the quit and we made it through. You can, too!
Get busy!
Nancy
P.S. Why did you allow yourself to stand in front of a cigarette display? Shop someplace where you don't have to!